Well it came. My 35th birthday. The picture above is the birthday cake that Sam bought me. Yes, I ate a teeny tiny square of it. Really it was small! But, it was yummy! Honestly if it weren’t for Facebook you know that most people would not even know it was your birthday, that might have been better. Then they wouldn't know that I am no longer a sweet young thing. Hee hee. I'm not that sweet! My mom and dad gave me a super cute dress that hopefully my skinny self can wear this summer, a meatloaf pan that takes out the fat and a new holder for my bible. Sam so nicely did the brakes on my Expedition and got me a new MP3 player so that I can listen to music when I go to the gym. He also bought that yummy cake and took us all out to dinner. It was a nice birthday!
I jumped eagerly on my scale at 5:15 this morning…NOT! Well I did get on the scale but not eagerly. I was happy with a 5lb. loss! Although I know that the first 5 are the easiest 5 to lose. So I know that this week I cannot expect to lose the same. My weight as on this morning was 150.0 yuck! So I don’t really want to give myself a number goal for this week. Instead I would like to shoot for 2 to 4 pounds gone but while those are numbers I’m looking more to goal myself at being at the gym at least 4 times this week. I really want to focus on toning and losing at the same time. Last summer I lost 10 pounds just from lowering my calorie intake. But since my goal is for shorts this summer I need to be in the gym or doing some sort of exercise at least 4 times a week. Hitting the gym at 5:30am sucks! I’m tired but I’m getting used to it. Its a choice right? Maybe one day I’ll like it. Maybe one day I’ll get smart and go to bed early the night before I’m gonna go. Then my eyes and face wouldn’t look so tired and wrinkly. Time for Botox. Ha ha, just kidding…sort of. So hopefully this week I can keep up with all that I am trying to achieve. I bought myself a pair of goal shorts so once I reach those I will feel like I’ve done it and accomplished something. Hopefully I can wear them this summer. I am not good with slow progression.
I did make sure that I did not have any grey hair going into my 35th year. Yeah, black is back baby. Grey is gone forever…errr well at least for the next 4 weeks. 35, I’m not super excited about it. It feels older than 34. Heck, it is really close to 40 and I am not anywhere close to where I wanted to be. But I know I’m not ready for 40, and the last five years flew by. I’m kind of scared.
I’m hoping that 35 will bring more wisdom. Better choices and a skinnier me. I am working on all of those. So I guess we’ll see. Hey, I’m a work in progress. Hopefully I’ll be finished soon!
My sweet buddy! I love him! Best gift I ever received! I am blessed beyond measure! So here's to another 35 years and then some!
xoxo,
Heather
If you know me then you know that there are certain things that I am particular about. I like things the way I like them and I very rarely go out without make up on. I’m kind of like the cover of those magazines where you see pictures on celebrities without their make up only I am not a celebrity, but I look just as bad. I’d tell you that I feel bad about being vain, but it isn’t really true. I don’t want people to see me looking haggard. I am in no way perfect and I am not trying to portray myself that way, but I do care about my appearance and I want to feel good about myself. I won’t lie, I look in the mirror a lot. When I walk by one yes I do check myself out. I look to make sure that those hairs that want to stand straight up are not. I look to make sure that I have nothing in my teeth, and I look to make sure all the rolls and such are covered and that I look presentable. If people were really honest with themselves I think that they would admit that they check themselves out as well. I actually find it a little odd that there are so many people who really don’t care about how they look and walk around looking like they just woke up. I know I’m a bad person. You don’t have to tell me. But seriously, I just don’t get it. I saw a lady walking her son to school the other day in her pajama pant with a hooded sweatshirt walking across main street smoking a cigarette. This was at 8am. Personally, I wouldn’t be out and about in my jammies. But come on, you need a nicotine fix that bad that you do while walking your son to school. I don’t get it. I guess that I just care more than some people. And honestly I don’t think that it has anything to do with self confidence and being confident in your own true inner beauty. I have plenty of self confidence and I still would not walk out of my house with at least eye brows painted on my face. So honestly what does that say about me? I know that this way of thinking is not necessarily the popular way to think but I do. I like my clothes to look nice, my make up to be good, and my hair done. I may at times relax a little on one of these things… I might put my hair in a braid or wear less make-up or dress casual, but for the most part I think I’m pretty put together. Sometimes I take it to the extreme, however as I say extreme I mean that you might think it is extreme to drive to work wearing flat shoes and then I change into my high heels when I get to work. I however, do not think that this is extreme. I think of it as being practical. #1 I don’t want to ruin the back of my heels by driving in them, and #2, I have to walk from a parking structure to my car and I’d prefer to be in flats.
So where exactly am I going with all of this? Well recently I decided that 155lbs was just not acceptable for me anymore. I have only weighed this much when I was pregnant with buddy and just after I had him. And while in clothing I may not look huge I see things in the mirror before I get dressed that would make you scream with horror. I don’t like the roll that hangs over my pants when I sit down. I don’t like the fact that I pretty much always need to wear an extra tank top underneath things to tone down the spare tire that I’ve been carrying around since buddy came. I also would like to have one summer where I can wear shorts and be happy with how I look. Plus, if I were to get into a bathing suit today I might pass out from the grossness that I would see. Am I over exaggerating? No! Would this bother everyone? No. But like I said this is something that matters to me. To me it has become about making the choice. Going to the gym, getting up at the ass crack of dawn to go, hell it isn't even dawn. It’s pitch black outside when I go. But I’m making that choice. I want to see results. I want to wear shorts. I’m choosing to eat better and do what I need to do to lose the weight that I want to.
One thing is for sure there will be sweat and tears, and if I don't lose weight there will be blood after I kick my own ass.
Vanity is not a good thing…in theory, but to not care in my opinion would be worse.
Happy Tuesday! This is gonna be a totally random post, but hey sometimes I'm all over there place. Such is my life! I went ahead and took the plunge... I created a sort of fan page for this blog (which really isn't a fan page, but its what works and the only thing I could figure out how to do). On this fan page I will keep track of everything that I eat. Everything good and bad. I will post pictures and ugggghhh my weight. I will also be doing longer recaps of what is hopefully to become my weight loss journey. I have no choice but to lose weight now. I've made it public. If for some reason you want to follow you can. Just search Extra Ordinary but Fabulous in the search bar on facebook then like the page. Or you can let me know you'd like to support my weightloss and some of the serious issues I have and I'll send the invite. Or...you can follow me on twitter which also links up to my facebook. I do have a disclaimer though as I state on my facebook page. I cannot promise that I will not be rude, crude, or gross but I will be honest! Sounds like fun huh!
On another note I have decided that I am going to start saying y'all. Not for any reason other than I want to. I'm random I know.
I went on a bike ride this weekend after Buddy told me that he didn't want a fat tummy like you mommy. Ouch. That was the end of it for me. I weigh 155lbs. and after today that will be no more. It is kind of scary how honest kids are but the scarier thing is that it is taking my sweet boy calling me fat to actually do something about it. I've known for a while that I needed to do it but have not been able to overcome my problem. I'm feeling really motivated right now lets hope it stays that way!
My 35th birthday is in a week and I'm not too sure how I feel about that. Other than I am a big fat mess. I know that it will come and go quietly without any fuss but it is still a feeling of hitting a benchmark. I'm half way to old. I better get on the stick and get some stuff done with myself.
This time change has been no bueno for me and buddy. I am so tired. I wore a pound of makeup today so that I wouldn't look as tired as I am. Poor buddy. He is just not adjusting well to this. Honestly, I don't like getting up in the dark. Its colder, its darker and it makes me tired.
I'm pretty sure that this week will be super busy. I'm working on a fun craft project I will share once its done as well as a lot of work. Softball for the girls, and a quick trip up to see mom and dad this weekend. So hopefully, I will post something in the midst of all of that craziness. I am going to make the time. Especially since I need to post about this whole weight loss stuff. I've decided that I have to choose to do it. So I will.
Anywho, all of my randomness doesn't usually lead anywhere. But sometimes its fun! Sometimes its not. It is what it is.
xoxo!
H.
Ooooo its High Five Friday, I'm so excited! Mostly because its Friday and my work week is almost over but also because its been a really long week and I'm mentally and physically exhausted and ready for the break. I'm doing today's post from work...hence I'm out to lunch! Our glorious owners blocked Pinterest and Facebook from our computers. What they don't know is I have Facebook on my phone and my Windows live is connected through Facebook so they really didn't hurt me that much.
Anyway on to the meat of this post :) My Friday HIGH Five!
1. Fabulous shoes- I bought the most amazing pair of Enzo Angiolini shoes this week. They are just the color I've been looking for. (kind of a champange/neutral color) They are high and beautiful and it was love at first sight and I had to have them! It wasn't even a question. They make me happy!
2. I was able to help save someone's home today. It is really gratifying to know that this persons home will not sell on Monday because I didn't give up on them when our attorney's did. After some sentence enhancing words were spoken they gave it one more try. Low and behold...sale date stopped. Super excited!
3. Buddy got his first pair of Chuck Taylors. OMG they are just the cutest thing. My sweet boy is such a honey. We are now twinners. And we are very excited!
4. Julia played a great game last Saturday and plays again tomorrow and we are so glad that she is finally on an AWESOME team! She got a great hit and I really think that this will boost her confidence. Also excited to watch Megs play tomorrow as well!
5. Upper 70's. Cannot say that this beautiful weather is not nice. Having the sun shining in the morning does seem to make the day better. I'm also super excited that the time is changing this weekend and we can do stuff outside when I get home from work. I can't wait to start riding my bike again. So excited about that.
I'm happy that its the weekend. I can't begin to express how much I need it. I can tell you that tomorrow will be a day of many highs! I wait happily for Saturday to arrive!
Have you ever thought about those little idiosyncrasies that you have? Those things that you do that make perfect sense to you but maybe not so much to anyone else. Is that even something you think that you can figure out about yourself? I mean Sam is a freak about security. Honestly I think it borders on the side of OCD. It is maddening. This weekend I went out to hook up the trailer so my mom and I could go and pick up some tool boxes she had bought for my dad for his birthday. I hooked it up to the truck and I asked my mom to take off the tire covers. She very calmly told me that she couldn’t get one of the covers off so I told her I would do it. When I walked over to the tire I notice that Sam had hooked a ratchet strap around the tire to prevent someone from driving off with it. It was so tight that I couldn’t get it off. I tried calling him at work four times in a row to tell me how I was supposed to get this stupid strap off. He never answered. So I did what any sane person would do. I went into the house and got the scissors and cut that strap off. Then I left it on the concrete so he could find it when he moves the trailer back where it goes today and see that I cut it off. (Sometimes I’m a jerk) But honestly I was so mad. Because really, I have a hard time believing that someone is going to take the time to drive into our backyard in broad daylight and hook up the trailer and leave with it. Maybe it will happen but I doubt it. He is also a freak about locking the doors. He will be sitting watching TV during the day and the house and it will be locked down like Fort Knox. It really sucks when I leave to go to the grocery store purposely leave the front door unlocked and come home with arm loads of groceries only to find the front door locked. But not just locked dead bolted as well. The really maddening part about this is that I have found that now when I walk in the door I lock it. Much to the chagrin of anyone else who might want to come in or go out. WHY? I don’t want to be on lockdown. So why do I do it? I have yet to figure this out.
I sent Sam a text message on Saturday night while he was out with his friends and told him that I think he needs to take me out on a date before I go crazy. His reply was, “you already are crazy, but I’m getting used to it”. Followed by “ha ha”. The funny thing about this whole thing is that I have found that we really see all the things other people do that annoy us. But we forget or can’t see the things that we do that might annoy other people. Because it is pretty obvious that Sam has no clue how annoying he is. So what things do I do? Hmmm… well I should definitely start off with work. After all this is the one placing that I constantly want to throw things at people. (Last week I did throw a whole pad of post it notes at a smug little man who works with me…but that is a whole other story). I know that I like things a certain way. I want all paperwork done and in the order that I want it in. I honestly just dug through a whole bag of clips so that I could clip a clients documents with a pretty red binder clip. But is that annoying? Ok we’ll move on from work and just say that everything I do there is always right and people should just follow my lead and do what I want or keep quiet…hmmm…maybe I am a tad narcissistic. I don’t really want to be. I will try harder not to be. Yikes! I think this blog post took me somewhere I didn’t want to go…self discovery sucks! – Let’s see how I am at home… I’m kinda scared now. But really I think I’m much worse at work than at home. I do like everyone to be quiet when I’m watching One Tree Hill but that is just because this season is so great and really intense. I think I’m pretty relaxed at home actually. I mean, the house isn’t always clean. My room will never be sparkling, and I do let clothes sit on the couch waiting to be folded for more than a day. Hmmm. I don’t know, maybe I’m scared to dig any deeper. I’ll just have to break down and ask Sam to tell me what things I do that annoy him. I can tell you one thing he has told me. He thinks my life revolves around food. Well, I don’t know where he would get that idea. I mean I don’t think he’s ever seen me eating a spoonful of hot fudge before. Hee hee.
I’m not sure this little journey of self discovery is exactly where I wanted to go with this post but maybe all of this will lead me to be a better person. Maybe not. But I think now I’m pretty sure that we can’t see or don’t want to see the things we do that annoy and irritate others. Oh boy, I think I opened a can of worms. But I guess we’ll see where it leads. I’ll let you know what he says. I wonder if I’ll agree.
Anywho… happy Monday! Hope you have a happy and relaxing week. I’ll leave you with this thought, I heard it somewhere. If you always focus on what you don’t like about someone you will forget all the things you love about them. Ain’t that the truth.
Xoxo!
H.
I sent Sam a text message on Saturday night while he was out with his friends and told him that I think he needs to take me out on a date before I go crazy. His reply was, “you already are crazy, but I’m getting used to it”. Followed by “ha ha”. The funny thing about this whole thing is that I have found that we really see all the things other people do that annoy us. But we forget or can’t see the things that we do that might annoy other people. Because it is pretty obvious that Sam has no clue how annoying he is. So what things do I do? Hmmm… well I should definitely start off with work. After all this is the one placing that I constantly want to throw things at people. (Last week I did throw a whole pad of post it notes at a smug little man who works with me…but that is a whole other story). I know that I like things a certain way. I want all paperwork done and in the order that I want it in. I honestly just dug through a whole bag of clips so that I could clip a clients documents with a pretty red binder clip. But is that annoying? Ok we’ll move on from work and just say that everything I do there is always right and people should just follow my lead and do what I want or keep quiet…hmmm…maybe I am a tad narcissistic. I don’t really want to be. I will try harder not to be. Yikes! I think this blog post took me somewhere I didn’t want to go…self discovery sucks! – Let’s see how I am at home… I’m kinda scared now. But really I think I’m much worse at work than at home. I do like everyone to be quiet when I’m watching One Tree Hill but that is just because this season is so great and really intense. I think I’m pretty relaxed at home actually. I mean, the house isn’t always clean. My room will never be sparkling, and I do let clothes sit on the couch waiting to be folded for more than a day. Hmmm. I don’t know, maybe I’m scared to dig any deeper. I’ll just have to break down and ask Sam to tell me what things I do that annoy him. I can tell you one thing he has told me. He thinks my life revolves around food. Well, I don’t know where he would get that idea. I mean I don’t think he’s ever seen me eating a spoonful of hot fudge before. Hee hee.
I’m not sure this little journey of self discovery is exactly where I wanted to go with this post but maybe all of this will lead me to be a better person. Maybe not. But I think now I’m pretty sure that we can’t see or don’t want to see the things we do that annoy and irritate others. Oh boy, I think I opened a can of worms. But I guess we’ll see where it leads. I’ll let you know what he says. I wonder if I’ll agree.
Anywho… happy Monday! Hope you have a happy and relaxing week. I’ll leave you with this thought, I heard it somewhere. If you always focus on what you don’t like about someone you will forget all the things you love about them. Ain’t that the truth.
Xoxo!
H.
I have no self control. I mean really, I can't stop. Eating. I love food! I mean I L.O.V.E. food! It makes me happy, then it makes me sad. I have to stop. I just hit up my favorite night time friend. The Smuckers hot fudge sauce. No really, I go into the kitchen late at night and get the largest spoon I can find and take a giant spoonful of refrigerated hot fudge...errr...cold fudge. Ummm yummm! That is all I can say. But seriously all of this needs to stop.
Honestly, they have a drug for alcoholics that makes them sick when they drink. I think that there should be a drug that you can take that once you've reached your 1200 calories for the day anything you eat after that would make you violently ill. Yes, I said violently. Because if it was that bad you wouldn't be doing it for very long now would you. I would hope not. I am thoroughly convinced that there has to be something I can do to help myself. Something that will control my horrible lack of self control. But WHAT IS IT? I thought maybe a diet of coffee, diet coke and pickles might work. Really. Coffee is good for one thing..I won't mention what that is but I think you know. Diet coke makes you feel full and pickles are salty and zero calories. What do you think? I'm pretty sure it will work. I mean really it could be the next big thing. The only other thing I think would help was if I took a picture everyday of the yuckiness that is from my waist down to remind me why I need to have self control. Hmmmm I don't know. I think the coffee, diet coke, pickles diet would be easier.
xoxo
Here are my Friday High Five!
1. A hot shower - OMG I LOVE to take a super hot shower when I wake up in the morning. It does honestly make me happy! And what an awesome way to start the day!
2. Morning coffee - With french vanilla creamer...mmmmm so yummy! I do sometimes miss coffee Fridays!
3. Hearing Buddy wake up and say "Good morning, its a sunny day" I LOVE THAT!
4. DIET COKE - Hello I'm Heather and I'm a Diet Coke-aholic
5. Chick Fil A - Brought to me by a co-worker. Hey its the small stuff that makes me happy! Sooooo gooooood!!!!!!!!!!
Hey its Friday, what more do you need to be happy? Well maybe a cupcake would be nice...
xoxo,
Heather